Ritual recipes for when the cost catches up.
💭 What happens when the thing you avoided… catches up to you?
A decision made in a rush.
A truth you couldn’t face at the time.
A boundary you let blur.
A silence that lingered too long.
And now–it’s not just a memory. It’s a weight.
Maybe it shows up in your bank account.
Or in your relationships.
Or in the way your chest tightens when you try to sleep.
You feel the shadow debt.
✦ My Story
I remember the moment I finally faced what I’d been avoiding.
I saw the truth laid out in front of me–clear, undeniable.
And I broke down.
I cried.
I felt ashamed, overwhelmed, and deeply alone.
I thought back to the moment I made the decision that led here.
How fast it happened.
How sure I thought I was.
How wrong I turned out to be.
For weeks, I went about my days as if everything was fine.
I smiled. I answered emails. I went through the motions.
But I started withdrawing–from social events, from people, from joy.
Because all I could think about was: How am I going to get out of this mess?
I couldn’t sleep. I felt numb.
It felt like something inside me had died–and I was dying with it.
Eventually–quietly–I came back to it.
I faced it again.
And I decided to take one small step forward.
It’s still hard.
I’m working with limits. I don’t know how the future will unfold.
But I know this: I faced it. I’m still facing it.
And that’s where this series comes from.
Not from having the answers, but from surviving the silence–and trying to find meaning inside it.
✦ What is Shadow Debt?
Shadow debt is the emotional, spiritual, and sometimes financial cost of what we’ve avoided.
It’s what accumulates when we suppress a truth, ignore a pattern, or push forward when our soul begs us to pause.
It doesn’t make you bad.
It makes you human.
This series is not about punishment.
It’s about sacred honesty.
It’s about creating space to feel what’s been buried–without shame.
🔮 What You’ll Find in This Series
Each post in the Shadow Debt Series is a ritual recipe–a guided experience designed to help you face what’s been buried, feel what’s real, and begin again.
Inspired by the tarot, each ritual includes:
- 🕯️ Symbolic tools (like candles, mirrors, water, and cards)
- ✍️ Journal prompts for emotional excavation
- 💭 Affirmations to support your shift
- 🌿 Optional self-care versions for a gentler approach
- 🌀 Structured like a recipe: ingredients, steps, prep time, emotional yield
These are rituals for deep self-honesty.
Not flash. Not easy.
But steady. And sacred.
🧷 Who This Is For
This series is for anyone who:
- Made an impulsive decision and is still feeling the ripple
- Struggles with guilt, regret, or emotional avoidance
- Feels disconnected from their intuition and wants to rebuild trust
- Is ready to face themselves—not with shame, but with presence
Whether you’re untangling financial mistakes, grieving a hidden loss, or just starting to reckon with the gap between who you were and who you’re becoming—these rituals are for you.
They’re also for me. I’m walking through this too.
🛠 How to Use This Series
- Start with the ritual that calls to you.
- Use the ingredients you have.
- Make it yours—there’s no perfect way to heal.
You can revisit these rituals when the weight returns, or when you feel yourself hiding again.
They’re here to help you face the shadow—and come back to yourself.
🖤 Final Note
I’m not on the other side of this yet.
But I’m here, doing what I can.
And maybe, so are you.
This isn’t about fixing yourself.
It’s about facing what’s real–the choices, the silence, the shame.
And remembering you’re still worthy. Even now. Especially now.
If that speaks to you–welcome.
This series is for us.
Welcome to the Shadow Debt Series.